ALLAH surely love her more .

assalamualaikum .

aku tak tawla ada x antra korg ni yang penah rasa pe aku rasa .

n pada yang penah rasa bolehlah share the experience wif me kay .

13th march . 8.05am . 

from the moment i felt her cold hand until i saw her last breath .

it was the most empty feeling ever .

mama penah crita kat aku : 

"bila kita ilang ayah rasa lain , bila kita ilang mak rasa lain n bila saat kita ilang suami rasa lain"

mayb this is the feeling kan ma . i dunno why but mayb its just because i have spent 24/7 wif mama

makes me feel that she is now by my side . 

the feeling of letting go seems soo much easier than holding on .

the moment u realised that the person u love is no longer with you is the moment when u start to break down .

mama , dorg yang mengata pasal pa 2 penah pk x 

i was the one with u , i was the one who held ur hand and i was the one who seeing u go . 

cant they think for once that im just a human being .

it is true . i have to be grateful coz i know that ALLAH surely love her more .

doesnt matter how hard it is to let go but 

i have to be strong for us coz that is surely what u want . right mama ?

no matter what happen . mama is safe now .

aku bersyukur sebab aku taw skang ALLAH yang jaga mama .

aku bukan yang terbaik n aku taw ALLAh akan lebih menyayangi n memelihara mama sbb aku yakin

ALLAH MAHAmengasihani . 

ya ALLAH , kau kasihanilah mama seperti mana dia mengasihani aku semasa aku kecil dan kau tempatkanlah mama di kalangan rang2 yang beriman . 

AMIN . 

ayat penegas : IBUKU IBUKU IBUKU . kemudian barulah ayahku . :(